Deciding.

OK so I have decided that I am changing my blog URL and everything very soon, like maybe today.

Decisions, decisions.

All I know if that I am going to enjoy being anonymous from now on.

Thats Life.

I feel like I am not living a life.
I do all these great things, with great friends, and it makes me happy.

But at the same time, everythings out of my control.
Guess I gotta live with it.

Never Knew.

Friday involved acting for skins, life discussions, and a gigantic game of hide n seek.

I had a good night and learnt somethings I have never known before. It was a nice night but I feel kind of sad now...

My So Called Life Update.

So today I got my mid term report card and my average is 83%. That's the best its been in awhile, and its cause I got a 90% in english. Lovely.

Also today Old Navy called and asked if I wanted to come in for an interview on Monday. Exciting, yesterday I handed out resumes to stores. My first time, and I was a little nervous at first but then afterwards I was fine. But I heard the interview is a group one, which scares me a little bit, cause that's intimidating. I find group interviews to be weird and rather bad because you can't judge a person by that. + you're already nervous to begin with and now you have to talk with a group of people. Scary.

But I'm just going to go in an be myself, that's the only way to get the job. Wish me luck.
I am now off to the school coffee house to watch some shittastic performances.

Disgraceful

VulgarBitch says:
yo, you know about the columbine school shooting righhtt?

LameBF says:
uhh
the whole world knows?

VulgarBitch says:
Well yeah.

VulgarBitchsays:
Well, I want that, to happen at Saltfleet, Tomorrow.

The new generation of kids at my school are such rays of sunshine, aren't they? Who am I kidding? This is the most disgusting thing I have ever heard in my life. And I love how its Remembrance day. The poor girl wouldn't know respect if it was staple gunned to her forehead.

Grade 10's are such dildos.

Look Back.

Summer feels like yesterday.

Celebration.

Today is a special day, this post marks my 500th post! So what better way to commemorate it then by telling you about a blissful night...

Surprisingly my weekend went from being super shitty, to really awesome.

Friday I was bitching and moaning cause everybody was out there doing something, and I was home alone doing shit all. Well Jess and I managed to go to Kelsey's for my friends birthday and we had a time there. After we went to my friend J's house and everyone was going to get drunk, there was like 6 of us, but everyone decided not to so I said fuck it, drank most of the beer and got drunk. Not smashed, but a good light drunk. It was rather pleasant.

Yesterday I had some plans later on at night, but I didn't want to wait for them to come so I went to my friend S's house, she was home alone and we decided that we were going to get plastered. So we invited some friends over, and one random, and the evening turned out to quite memorable. This really gay kid came, hes out and everything, and he has this tendency to not stop talking, and when he does talk its about being gay, boys, and sex. It was funny because you could be having an in depth conversation but he would put a damper on it when he brought up something really awkward, then all of us would just be awkwardly sitting there. It was fucked, but so funny, and we all hardly knew him, we just told him to come.

After getting plastered we went from like room to room talking, I remember one person saying, "Why do we keep switching rooms?" I couldn't tell em, all I know is that we went from the living room, to the computer, to the kitchen, to the porch, and so on. After all the talkin we played hide n seek in the dark, don't do this when you aren't all there. Then we went in my friends moms fashion warehouse in the back, and played in there in the dark, and oh my god it was messed. There was millions of clothing racks and we were all so fucked out of our faces to even deal, it was like a horror movie. It was too much fun, the best was when I was trying to slowly go in a clothing rack in the dark to hide and R banged on the door and my friend J screamed "GET IN!!!!" and kicked my arse straight into the clothes rack. It still makes me laugh cause the game hadn't even started. Oh and we tried to hide behind a curtain and we were like pressed up against a window all howling. I still don't remember why we did that. Ha.

But after all the fun n games, we basically hit the sack. To bloody tired. I woke up in the morning feeling quite groggy of what happened and then it all hit me.

I had a bloody good weekend, but too much freezies.

Ps. "oH heYyyY BeckYyYyyy!"

Somebody.

I have friends, I'm not alone at school. But outside of those walls I feel like I am a complete loner. There are some days when I go out during the weekdays, but usually nobody ever wants to hangout or I don't. But when the weekend comes, I try to make plans with people but everyones always doing something.

I would hate to ask to tag along cause I don't want to be intrusive, but I'd rather that then be alone on a friday night.

I am so bored right now and wondering where my friends are, I just need somebody to hangout with. I'm seriously considering getting drunk by myself tonight, cause all I really want to do is party and get smashed.

White Flag.

So 2 of my friends and I decided to go to the Toronto auditions of the US remake of the most amazingggggg show ever SKINS. There on the 21st and we really don't know what to expect but we think it could be fun experience and it would be fantastic if we get on the show. I just want to act on a show about teenagers, don't ask why, but its always been a dream.

Fat chance for I though, but I think my other friends have a good chance.
But I'll be positive, I am a little bit hard on myself lately and I want to believe I have a chance, but you got to get real sometimes.

But if people think I'm going to raise that white flag easily cause of self esteem issues, there wrong, I'm going to go in there and work my ass off for this.

Girl Fight.

There seems to be a lot of trouble and fights going on in my school lately. The grade 12 girls are facing off against the grade 11 sluts. These grade 11 girls seem to have a tendency of being very sexual and have never had a good reputation with anyone, also they haven't exactly been respectful towards the older kids, which has pissed the grade 12 girls right off.

There was a screaming match involved in the library a couple days ago, and today. These 2 girls of the grade 11's are the central catalyst to the fight, and are going to get there ass kicked apparently. That's why one of them is leaving our school, or so I hear. To be honest, it was to be expected because no girl likes a slut who hangs with a grade 12 guy.

As for the other troublemakers of Saltfeet, I just notice that the principals are on the look out more often and SO many kids have been suspended in the past month. Today I saw 2 of the principals investigating 3 different fights. Its rubbish! This school has been taken over by little shits.

Fuck me gently with a chainsaw why don't ya.

Balls.

Decided not to do my english 10 page report, I think I'm passing well enough to not fail.
Eff that assignment, its major ballsonface.

Happy Halloween.

Happy Halloween everyone! Have fun tonight, cause I still don't know what the fuck I'm doing.

The Damage.

Devils Night.

Tonight was FUCKED.

What was meant to be a night full of fun on Hallows Eve, turned into a night of drama.

We started at A's house pre drinking and getting our costumes ready for R's party. It was fun and we were having a good old time, then we went to the actual party. The party was fun, they always are but the place was filled with douche bags who like to fight, and it was expected to happen with the type of boys who were there.

A bunch of us were sitting on this hill when we heard there was this fight, so we got up to go look and I walked right in front of it, this kid was starting shit, MN, and he was yelling at another guy, MN, was piss drunk and suddenly this kid out of no where punches him in the face and everyone started kicking his ass. He was owned by so many people. So we left that scene and moved to the front of the house, and MN had already left the party in a rage. It was AM, JC and I when we heard this huge crash come from the side of the road, I saw these lights go out of control but I didn't think of much until we heard the crash. So we decided to go investigate.

Honestly, what we saw was messed. MN was piss drunk, and driving.... Not only that he drove ON TOP of my friends car! The car we came to the party in! His truck had driven my friends car off the road, pinned it beside a pole, with his truck on top of the cars front bumper! I was in shock, and then the guy started to try and drive away! WHILE HE WAS ON TOP OF THE CAR! He was the biggest tool I have EVER seen. Then he tried saying, someone tried to hit him? and drove him off the road. Fucking lies. Lets just say everyone gathered in the street and started hating on the kid. MN then tried to run away but was found.

The police came and shut down the party and we all left, we decided to go to my friends house down the road, so we walked there in our costumes. It was a good night for me, but for others- not so much. I feel bad for my friend who's car got trashed by that god damn idiot! She didn't deserve that! The kid needs to be arrested for drunk driving and damage! He could have killed somebody!

Ugh, I am so mad at that kid, I wanna knock his teeth in.

Happy National Kitty Day!

Happy national kitty day! Go hug your cat. I'm about to right now :]

Tough love.

So I always go through old post's and read what I was going through at the time and last years are a favourite of mine. I don't know why but they are. I also love finding comments on the posts that I have never read and they are really old now. Especially the nasty mean comments. There was this one month where a person actually like studied every post of mine, and would say something negative about it. Lmao.

I just found those comments now and laughed a little, you could tell it was someone who read my blog a lot because they knew about previous posts. Well I won't get into detail but they tried to make me look like an idiot, but kinda didn't work...

Don't people know by now that silly little "anonymous" disses aren't very frightening. There is a way you can post your real name and comment! They just don't feel like insults if you don't know who's saying it. FAIL.

EDIT: Just read ever more old posts, this person says they hate my blog, but yet they commented on like over 20 posts? Obsessed bitch!

Dark and twisty no more.

I am still dark and twisty. But I am coming out of it, and I feel more comfortable with myself. So eat your heart out. No more of that, I want bright and shiny Brendan. Life is good right now, life is frikin good.

So happy I could die.

May 21st 2010. Cannot wait for this day.

Trick r Treat.

Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it. Hmm sound familar? lol.

Anyways, so I am going to this Halloween party on Friday. If you are anybody in my school you are going. Just kidding, that sounds really mean girls-y, but anyways a lot of people are going and since I did attend last years Halloween party, lets just say it gets pretty wild.

Basically you have all different grades coming, mostly grade 12's, then you have everyone in different costumes which is the cool part cause some are really clever and others are, uhm... rather revealing! To add to the festivities there is plenty of alcohol and by the end of the night there are at least 10 kids who are puking in the fields, 5 girls making out with boys they shouldn't be, and 2 fights. Some publicly, some secretly.

So ya it gets wild, especially the people who go, they tend to be reckless. But that's any party. But it being a Halloween party is just awesome because you get to watch people in costume vomit everywhere. How pleasant. Lets just hope the weather holds up because right now on the forecast its calling for light rain and the party is outside. Last year it never rained and it was awesome, but if it does now, party is cancelled, and Halloween = dunzo!

Sleeping sickness.

I don't know how much longer I can last laying in bed for endless hours, watching TV and movies. It has become a bore being sick. I wanna get back to school but at the same time I don't. I think if I stay home one more day I might be better for Wednesday.